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Starvation
Sunday, May 3, 2009
To think that i've overcomed it.
To think that i had complete contol over it.
Now, it all comes tumbling down.
Every single freaggin thing.
I don't care.
I won't bother, won't listen.
I'll do whatever it takes to convince my mind that
i ain't fat no more.
Cause now, it's reeeally getting outta hand.
And it's driving me insane.
Starvation will commence today.
Yes, TODAY.
And FOREVER will it be.
So what if i've loose alot of weight?
So what if there's a major difference in me compared
to last year?
FYI;
I don't feel beautiful. I don't feel slim.
All i feel is HUGE, HUGE, HUGE.
All i see is UGLY, UGLY, UGLY.
I will not eat for breakfast, i will not eat for lunch,
i will not eat for dinner.
If i can do this for one whole freaggin month,
i see no reason why i can't do it again.
And if i ever get sibey hungry,
i'll feed those hungry vibes by remembering the negative remarks,
those painful memories
peepos used to called me when i was huge.
I won't stop starving myself, till my mind is happy.
Mei, kor, Awww`some, friends, love ones.
Don't worry bout me.
Don't even freaggin dare to try to stop me.
You don't know how painful it is to be living wit a mind i have.
So instead of fighting it,
i'm giving in to it.
I'll satisfy it's wish, to be more skinnier.
To not consume anything.
DON'T TRY TO STOP ME.
DON'T EVER DARE TO TRY AND STOP ME.
Cause when i start,
I'll never stop.
MARK.
MY.
WORDS.
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