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Needs more confidence.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Hmm..I really look up to Rui En's Character in the show ' By My Side'.
She has AIDS. But she lives her live to the full.
She lives her life everyday helpin patient wit AIDS.
She lives her life ignoring the fact that she has that disease in her body.
She continues living her life to the full. Eventhough, she knows, one day, she might not make it.
Now why can't i do that? ( I DON'T HAVE AIDS.)
It's just.. I have some low self confidence and low self esteem issues.
Last time, i would stare at the mirror. And keep on cursing hurtful words to myself.
Keep on punching my stomach.
Keep on saying,"Why are you such an ugly fat-ogre?".
Yes, it's that serious. And everyday, when i go out. I'll go out in fear.
Fear that others would make fun of me. Would stare and talk bout me.
Well, now. It has gotten ALOT better. Lucky me, i had my friends, my mei, baby, everyone helping me out.
I started exercising, cut down on sugary stuffs. Started snacking on fruits instead of chocs.
Well, i've lost alota weight.
And whenever, i look myself in the mirror. I kinda really like the girl staring at me.
Now i can see how gorg she really is.