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Headache
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Second day of school peeeeps.
Any boyyyyyyy, sibey lucky-.- there's no
Mt.
For a hundred and one reasons,
i dreaded going for Mt classes. I'll often
tend to drag myself in.
Amierah probably knows why,
haha!
Riiight, riight? *winkswinks;D
Day started off wit Hist; which is dead
awwwwsome^^
Then continued wit Maths. I'm sibey silly
for not bringing maths book.
Damn stupid right? Then kena copy from page 14-18
onwards, okaaaaay laa.
MsPhua discounted us, if it weren't for the discounts,
it'll be a whoooole lot moooooore-.-
Ahh, i have yet to start on my Art.
Fugggg shiiit. I swear, i hate Art just cause of
MdmTeo-.- Thaaanks muuuch?
I'm still considering whether i should pass up
on thurs, even tho tomorrow's
the dead line.
Labels: save me?
Wish upon a star, that never once existed.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
When will i ever wake up and realise my mistake?Like i mentioned in the
previous post,life's a sinking boat fo me now.How many times am i gonna
continue standingthere and get punched and slapped attill i wake up?
I don't ever wish/want to be termed as 'emo'.
But, somtimes, emotions get the best of me, sometimes
sadness clog me fo several days.
Have too many things on my shoulders now.
It's getting heavier and exhausting by the minute.
From piggus issues-hols drama-pers. problems-having a major fight wit mommy
and daddy.
Fo the first time, in my entire life,
i felt like an outcast when daddy said that.
For, the very, very first time.
I felt like a stranger just passing by
a shop and looking in to the items that are being displayed.
Oooooouch.
But, whatev it is. I'll persevere.
I'll mend things bac.
Whatev it is, i gotta stay strong and have faith
in myself.
Right?
Haaa, only god knows how much pain i
am in now.
Labels: Never back down?
Autobots, roll out!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Changed blogskin, again. Hope now all misconceptions wil
be cleared?
Right now.
Things aren't going how i want em too.
Emotions are runing wild.
It's just crazy.
Sorry i hurt you mei.
Sorry guys.
I'm sick and tired of fighting wit it.
I'm sick and tired of knowing one day, i'll
succeed,
and on the other, i'll
just allow it to get to me.
I'm on the verge of falling off the cliff.
One more attack,
and i'll give in to it.
Labels: So we ran. On the dangerous roads and fields.
Stupid.bullpoppie.piggus
Monday, June 15, 2009
Fathiirah shall start PlanA from today onwards,
oooo gyeeeah;
15.o6.08,
16:52.
No one will disturb her or
try to stop her.
So, don't waste your breath okaaaay?
&she has to force herself to drink milk, eventho
she hates it.
Girl. You need to be more, more, more
taller^^
AND MORE SLIMMER.
Like fat piggu liao-.-
so disgusting, pleaseeee.
I hate you disgusting, noob, idotic fats
found in my body!
I hate you to the freaggin core-
to the deepest, darkest pit hole, hate you
to the crown of my head
to the soles of my feet.
I hate you, i hate you, i hate you!
So, stop coming to me, stop staying in my body.
i will, (i mean it) i will KILL you.
You're prohibited from coming/staying in my body,
so stop coming&staying!
Go to hell you bloody,bullpoopie, cb, nb, disgusting
piggus(fat cells).
Labels: right on the money, So sweet like honey
}14.14<3333
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me, happy birthday
to fathiirah!
Happy birthday to me^^
Turned 14 on the 14th of June, weee`haww.
Let's hope,
all my wishes will come true?
Well, if not all,
at least those first few wishes can
come true?
Oooh, pleaseee dear god? D:
Labels: happy birthday^^
Baobei`Mei<333
Thursday, June 11, 2009
DearestBaobeiMei<33333,
fcuk, never had it crossed my mind i'll miss you
this freaggin much.
Haha, mei, i miss you so, so
so uber much.
We clicked since we're in primary school,
pri5, i guess, to be exact?
Ahh, it hurts me just so much, i miss you
so freaggin much D:
Labels: i miss you alot
when there was me&you ...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
11 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!
Zomg,
LadyGaga's concert's on
14June?Siaaaal ar, that's like on myfreeaggin birthday.
Found, and is still finding myself watching
cooking channels.
Hoho, weeeeird, but suddenly i have
developed this sudden interest. Well, actually
not reeeally.
Been having this interest since HomeEc
started, but it only went seeerious at Sec2.
Been watching 'the f word'(Uh`huh, it's a cooking show ;D),
'rachel ray' plus some more other shows.
Well, can't reeally imagine myself being a chef when
i'm older.
Well, maybe, if i could't be a psychiatrist,
then probably i'll be a chef?
Maaaaaybe,
too soon to talk bout it now neeeways.
If i can be both, it'll
be greeeat!
Maybe part-time chef, part-time psychiatrist?
So, back to reeeality.
I knew i shouldn't breakdown then and there.
Knew i shouldn't show my weakness.
I regretted it all.
But, hey, no one can argue wit me,
that you&your cbknn friends were being
JACKASSES,
MORONS,
JERKS,
PURE, DOWN RIGHT
JACKASSES/MORONS/JERKS.
I was so, so disappointed at you before this happened.
Couldn't imagined that YOU,
would do such a THING.
And then, you&your cbknn friend just had to
made fun of me when i brokedown.
Wowwww, classic dude.
Sibey typical for a guy like YOU.
Before i saw you, i was sibey happy, was
having one hell of a greaaat time wit girlfs.
But then, when my eyes met you,
BAM.
A wave of heavy disappointment+sadness
came washing through my pulse,
and out through my eyes.
Gyeeeeah, i was THAT disappointed at you.
And guess what?
The award for awww`some male actor goes to
....
........
..........
-inserts your name here-
A standing ovation,
how bout a round of applause ladies&gents?
Your plan to make me HATE you has accomplished.
Your job's done.
Go run along.
One thing's for sure,
never will i trust anyone, esp guys wit all
my heart and soul.
I've learned it the hard way.
I can and i will move on wit my life.
I deserve much, much, much more better
then this.
You had your chance,
and you blew it off BIG,
BIG TIME.
Thankyou so so so much MsShahidah
for lending me a shoulder to cry on, a helping hand
and a wam hug.
Reeeally, it all suddenly clicked in me.
Thank you truckloadsss!
Labels: Go on and take a bow.
CountDowwwn!<333
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
12 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!
Correction peeps.
Apparently, the flight on 16th
will be arriving at KotaKinabalu late.
So, mommy called up the agent, and changed
the dates to 19th-22th instead.
Do, take note gyeeeah?
Pop-ups are seeeriously pissing
me off man D:
It's like popping up every time i
enter my blog.
Freaggin pekchek sia.
Neeewayss.
Imma use my hols wisely,
imma sharpen&improve my drumming.
Study,study, study!
Loose weight! D:
And blog more! :D
Labels: and all the brave horses dissolve in the mist.
One, final wish.
Monday, June 1, 2009
13 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!Oooh peeps.
Do take note that i'll be away
on the 16th-19thJune.
Going to KotaKinabalu,
i'll try to get souveniors for you
guys kay?^^
Andand!
Do take note of the above headline too!
Must, MUST, MUST!
Grr, hoho.
Watching The Biggest Loser,
has made me finally feel appreciated of
my body.
Of how much i fcukin loose.
I was muchmuch bigger last time.
But, when the show's over,
i'll tend to start
going back to my old self.
Peeps may think,
"Oooh, she has lost alot of weight.
And she looks greeat now.
She should be more happier and more
confident of herself now."
Dead wrong. I should be more
stronger despite going thru a rough
fight during PriSchool&SecSchool.
It didn't, instead, it got quite worst, even tho
no ones 'bullying' me right now,
bout my weight.
There's one particular bully who's still out
there.
Constantly taunting my mind,
constantly chanting
to my ear that i'm as fat as last time&i'm ugly as hell.
I can't escape. Cause i'm living wit it, it's
a part of me.
My mind is the bully.
My one final wish when im
officially 14;
is to be stronger.
To be able to love myself. Able
to appreciate myself.
To have more confidence in myself.
Labels: MeowwwMeowww/