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Deardear<3
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Hello, wello, bello :D
Just came bac from school. School was okaaaay.
Nothing special happen, hoho.
Last period was talking wit Vampyre all
the way lor.
Haha, he's one cool dude laa,
probably the closest guy i'm wit in class.Eh, eh. Don't mistaken hor!
We're CLOSE FRIENDS okaaaaaaaaaaay -.-
Nothing more. Cheersss! :D
Today the whole class did re`test.
Hoho, i must admit. I didn't reeeally studied properly.
Lols, but the test is okaaaaaaaaaaaaaay laa. Managable i guess?Did lit test also. Oh my god, i think
that test i'm gonna get low marks laa. Didn't understand
what the fish i wrote lor D:
Die, die, die. Haha.
Sad, today supposed to have study group
wit Baobie kor and Baobei mei.
But unfortunately, kor couldnt make it. *sobsobs
Kor, cheer up kay? I believe every problem can be settled.
It's like trying to solve a maths question.
You've got to be patient and gotta find a solution to figure it out.
Reeelax kay kor?
Anything can beep me or gimme a call kay?
Loves.
You did knew i didn't have any connnection link
wit you.
And yet you still thought i fancy you.
For the last time, i don't.
So, move on kay?
There are more girls out there who can
give you bac the love.
I can't, and i'm sorry, if i hurt you.
I already am damn guilty for breaking one guy's
heart already.
It was almost the same case,
but he was more seerious compared to you.
Ans me;
Would you try eating an unripe nut?
OR
Would you rather wait for it to bloom and ripe nicely?
Ofcourse the last one right?
Labels: i love you baby . . .
30stmfriend; you're my idol!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Didn't went school today.
These freagin cramps are killing me 0.0
Plus, didn't had the mood too.
Woke up 1011++? Didn't had anything to do,
watched MTV.
Then DC, then nickelodeon and then Okto.
Lols, skipping school ain't fun ya'll.
(Haha, i can't even believe i said this, lol!)
At least at school i can be around friends.
I admit, i truly regretted not going school today.
Gahhh!
Was surfing on Youtube.
Was finding drum cover for random songs.
And i ended up watching this super, duper cool vid.
Type; 30stmfriend.
O my god man! She's freaggin awww`someeeee!
And she's only what? 13? 14?
O my god laa! I'm so jealous D:
But, she's been learning drums for 5 years.
I only started learning around Sec1?
One half years? Depending on which month i started.
Jojo intro me Academy of Rocks.
She learn the guitar, while i learn drums!
I play the drums like 3ostmfriend!
I have to take things seeeriously, from now on.
I can't fool around, the fees aren't cheap.
Mommy will be very, very dissapointed if i fool around.
Have to start appreciating what mommy and daddy's been giving me.
I'll consistantly go to
drum lessons from now on.
I have to make it my first priority above the rests. Have to
consistently practice those exercises at home.
But, not everyone is fortunate enough to own a drum set in their homes.
What more in HDBs?
Labels: C'mon, stop fooling around.
Cravingggg Vibesssss
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Whoop-tee-do.
I've got cravings for sushi laa dammit! D:
I want my usuals D:
Sob, sob.
Oh my god laa, the clothes at Tamp1,
quite ex sia. Some more some not reasonable price! D:
Grr, but nice sia. Hohoho, must find other shops.
Who watches S Factor?
Zomg laa, it's damn stupid laa pleasee *____*
Singaporeans have no originalities man, sorry laa.
But it's a fact, all copy from the caucasians.
C'mon man Singapore, do your OWN productions man.
Show em what we're capable of man.
No offence, but seeriously.
I think Harper's Island is damn, damn,
mysterious, some what cool yet thrilling.
The scene where the bride's cousin kena
tied nye the propeler of the boat, under water,
is freaggin scary sia.
I was going "O my god, o my god."
Reeeally le, super scary, eerie and gore.
Okay, this craving vibes are reeeally bugging me.
Maybe gonna ask Sheeda if she can follow me :D
And tomorrow there's Digestion re-test.
Ahh. Sian, haven't even study.
Dont' know whether tomorrow also have Maths re-test.
Also haven't revise. Ahh.
Too lazy laa. Maybe i'll have to stay up,
and drink coffee and listen to music while studying.
Ho, ho, ho. Mafan laa all this freaggin tests.
Just skip all this test and get straight to exam laa 0.0
Got CA1/CA2 laa, SA1/SA2 laa.
Just do this whole thing once, and get straight
to exam better riiight.
Ahh! You peepos who set all this are reeeally giving me
headaches 0.0
Labels: My Life Would Suck Without You
After a longg period of delay, finally it came! At the wrong time! D:
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Gahhhh. Mences cramps are disallowing me to do things.Shit, shit. Curses you mences cramps!
Grrrrrr. Was supposed to go for Ms Nash's wedding.
But then, woke up and kena red light D:
Damn suey laa. Haishh.
Guess what? I found my mp3 player!
Hua hua hua, but damn, damn, sad.
Damn, damn, damn suey lor. The screen broke D:
Mommy and daddy are soooo gonna kill me,
if they found out.
Die, die, DIE!
Now no more mp3 player D: Waaaakao.
Nevermind, i still have my fone anyw :D
Still can hear songs from it, hahaha.
Reeeally super, duper, dee`duper sorry Amierah D:
Sorry laa. It's not i ask my red light come today riiight.
I'm not the one who makes all this decision.
When it's gonna come, or when it's gonna end riiight.
I know like last minute and such, if you want go soo much,
go wit our classmates laa.
For the last time, sorry okay?
You also got kena red light also riiight?
You do know how painful these cramps can get riiight?
Miss Nash even broke down infront of all of us at that time.
So, pleaseee understand kay? I'm reeeally sorry kay?
Labels: Am i ever gonna succeed? God knows.
Buck up, buck up fathiirah
Friday, April 17, 2009
Shoot, shoot, shoot.
I seeriously think i need Rehab,
for my obsession on shopping.
Lols, seeeriously. Ystd went TamOne.
Wit Sheeda and her sister.
Went inside one shop selling bags. Waaakao.
The white handbag damn freaggin nice laa!
But, 49.90 le, ex laa. A few days bac, just asked daddy to buy sandal.
Then now want buy bag. Wah.
Confirm he'll lecture me.
Today had syf at Vict Concert Hall, left for choir at 1030
Yessa, skipped Neo's lesson and Teo's lesson.
Wah, shiok man. But sian-ed laa.
Teo gave us art homework -.- ttthanks aaaaalot hor!
Guess what? lysian chorale got cop for the forth time.
Wowwwww, cool hah?
Hiashh, expected liao laa. Sorry laa.
But, normal choir have at LEAST 80 peepos kay.
How much do we have? Around 28 like that?
You tell me, how win like that? Then some more,
sort of like last min de.
Anglican High got the music sheet since last year
or something like that laa.
Damn laa.
C'mon choir, let's do this. Gotta get our head in the game.
So what if we are tiny? Doesn't mean we can't make it pass all
those big choir right?
And, fathiirah. Have to start being seerious in choir.
No more fooling around. To be frank,
i felt reeeally down when choir kena cop.
You chose this cca, now youre stuck to it for 2 years.
And when you're in it, means you're a part of the lysian chorale family.
Have to do your part as a member of lysian chorale.
Come early, be seerious during practices.
"if you can keep with this diet for so long then im sure you can achieve anything you put your mind to"
"always buy things that you need only,remember that your parents arent rich,think about how hard they're working just to support you"
"always buy whatever you need only.if you save your own money you can reward yourself"
"get your goals.and reward yourself for achieving each one"
"dont bother your parents too much with wants... if you need something you can ask them.but if you want something you have to earn it"
Credits to Awesomeness<3.
You're my medicine whenever i'm down.
You chase away my dark and rainy days.
And you've given some tips.
And i'm gonna remember and bring it along my whole entire life.
You rock Awesomeness and i love you! <3333
Labels: Baby i need a rehab. Awesomeness
NEW&IMRPOVED
Monday, April 13, 2009
It all suddenly fell into place. Some people thought i am emo as i sometimes look very miserable and i hurt myself and stuffs.And, i reeeally hate to be term as 'emo' i even hate the freaggin word.
And today, after reading Seventeen. A finally found an idea! Taaa`dah!
I've decided to change some of my ways.
LIFE; NEW&IMPROVED!
1. Be a more positive person instead of being the old negavtive me.2. Change my diet; instead of starving. Eat fruits and salads! They're ain't fat!
3. Have to start being more seeerious in my studies. Have to shoo all the lazy vibes away!
4. Have to start facing up to my problems bravely, w/o hurting myself in the process.
5. Have to start saving money instead of burning it away everytime i see clothes, clothes, CLOTHES!
6. Be a better daughter! Have to minimize fights wit mommy. what has happened in the past can't be erased. But i can change the present, so i won't regret if anything happens in the future(:
Let's just hope i'll stick to all this man. I wanna change, reeeally i do.
Hmm, i'll write this on one striking piece of paper and pin in up on my notice board. So, everytime i wake up, i can read it!
Gyeeeeah! And i have to start loving myself for the way i am. Confidence baby! Confidence!
Don't let no assholes/jerks or hags from hell make you look down on yourself. They ain't worth yo time honey!
Labels: Confidence, NEWnIMPROVED
Low Self Confidence
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Every little thing someone says i'll take it directly to heart. Oooh yes i will.Everything i do, i will have no confidence of myself. Name it; from playing the drums, to singing in Choir, to playing in sports to even doing my freaggin homework!
I can't reeeally trace bac where all this come from. Maybe it was a bad habit i adapted when i was young? I'm not try`na blaming my parents for not taking care of me.
But, seeeriously. When did all this started? Well, one and only reason that comes screaming and popping up in my head is; during primary school.
During P5-6, i got a taste of hell. Peepos teased me, they teased and teased.
I used to ignore all their unnecessary comments, but one day. The string that held me tight just snapped and dropped in to whirlpool of miserable and low-confidence vibes.
And as soon as i entered Sec1, wowwwww. It had gotten reeeally outta hand, i got reeeally depressed.
I started inflicting pain to myself 'physically' while those assholes destroy me 'emotionally'. I started looking down on myself, and if i had a crush on someone.
My mind will keep telling me, "C`mon, he's never gonna fall for a huge, ugly ogre like you. NO GUYS WILL. Wake up and smell the dead roses you fat ass!"
And whenever i fall for any guys, this will keep popping up on my head, like a post-it note. Even though peepos say i've loose weight and that i'm slimmer now.
I still don't think so. I still think i'm fat, fat, fat. Done. I AM FAT.
One time, i messaged Baobei mei bout the thingy that's bothering me. And she got me seeeriously shocked.
"EUR NOT FAT OKAE. IS FREAKIN ILLUSION. FREAKIN MMRS THT HAUNTS EUU. CUZ OF PPL WHO TEASED YOU."
From then on, i realised. Wowwww. Oooh. She was right, all along. This was the answer to all this living nightmares after all.
I couldn't let go of the past. Why. ...
Because i had been laughed at, been the centre of 'entertainment' to all those bloody whoop-tee-fcukS. I can't possibly forget all those humiliating parts of my life easily.
Because i have been teased for about 3-5 years? The most painful and worst part of my life. Being teased for 2 years still affects me as tho i've been teased for the whole century of my life. You 'good fo nothin piece of crapS' can't reewind time and undo all the hurtful things you've inflicted on me.
Labels: Bloody Assholes, Low confidence