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Sunday, December 14, 2008
Hey, hey, hey.
I had nothing to do.
So i went on the net and went to collect FTSK pics ;D
Damn, damn, damn, they're the most awesome-st band.
Hahahaha, you guys should try to listen to em.
Hahahaha. I think i found two hotties in the band.
One of them is ofcourse.
My all time crush, Kyle Burns :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Gyeah, isn't he cute?
Makes you gooooo,
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww<3
Nyahahahaha.
And the other is Caleb Turman.
Encore, encore!
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww<3
Lols! Soooo random :DDDDDDDDDDDD
Hahaha, so so back to reality.
I absolutely, seriously hate guys who loves to talk bout girls.
I mean. You know.
Those guys who sees girls that are huge, they'll like make fun of them.
Will make them girls the laughing stock or the centre of attention when they're around their friends.
Argh, i detest them sia. I seriously feel like kicking their balls.
They are seriously doop sia.
Seriously, you fcukin guys gotta get a life. C'mon man, be mature.
Be a grown up laaaa, walao.
For goodness sake -.-
Oh gyeah, concerning the matter.
This appearance thingy is haunting my life again.
Argh, i don't know how.
It's starting again. The mirrors are fcukin ruinin my life.
Whenever i turn and see my reflection in the mirror.
All i see. Is this huge, fat obese girl.
Seriously huge girl.
And it's affecting me. I'm starting to like stay at home everytime.
Try to avoid going in public cause i'm afraid to be make fun of.
Afraid of the humiliation, afraid of people seeing my body.
Yesterday was sorta emotional laaa.
I got quarter of it let go.
Thanks amira lots. For helping me through.
And thanks to Farihin.
Girl, you kinda make me wake up.
I guess you guys have help me alot.
Now, it's my turn to battle this thing on my own.
You guys finished half the race for me.
So, now. It's my turn.
Argh. I just hope i can fight this.
I just hope i can stop it from coming again.
Seriously stop it from coming back again.
Friday, December 12, 2008
I apologise for not writing in my blog that often.Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry!
D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D: D:
As you know, my laptop charger not working.
So, momma's gonna buy it when she get her bonusssss!
Oh gyeah, yesterday we 5.3 and 6.3 0'6 and 0'7 got gathering.
Hahahahaha, coolio dude :DDDDDDD
I bought water gun and sabo alota peeps.
Nyahahaha! Fun, fun, fun.
Then at the end, i kena from all of them D:
Sad lor! Argh *______________*
Ouh, then Ezzudin damn, sibey sibey hong sia!
Walao eh, i seriously felt like kickin his balls lor!
Flirt flirt flirt only he knows!
Cheeeeeeeee-byeeeeeeee, assholeeeeeeeeeee -.-
If he smells good nevermind laaa.
Walao, he stinko sia. What the hell lor.
He also flirt wit Anis.
We were both damn damn fcukin pissed lor.
Cheeeeeeee-byeeeeeeeeeeee laa he.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Why? Why? Why? Why? These questions keeps ringin' in my head.
I don't wanna lose a great, awesome, lovely bestest, best friend plus a dearest and one and only mei.
We've known like since p5? We became close friends at p6 and from there we bonded.
We got closer day by day. We share secrets.
We share crushes. Or what sort.
But when it's time to move to a higher level. We went seperate ways.
You went to Greenview, i went to Loyang.
We still are close. Infact, we're tight, dude.
You were like my rainbow, my sunshine every single positive thing in my life.
You picked me up when i was down.
You shower me wit love, patience, courage, strength when i was trapped by all walls.
You help me punch down those walls when i didn't have the strength.
You give me words and advices when i'm an enemy of myself.
You help me sooo damn fcukin much throughout the years.
I love you man. I don't want anything to seperate us.
But, maybe it's just my feeling or what sort.
FYI; to me.
This past few days, something is like bothering you.
Always your messages would be warm, bubbly very cheerful. Now, it's..
Nevermind.
Now, now, wait! It's just what i'm feeling.
Since you text me and said you don't have any problem.
So, i'll close the subject bout me thinking you gotta problem.
I want us to be hyper, to be happy happy to be care-free..
Like last time.
(Argh, to bloggers reading, i'm not lesbian. I repeat, i am not lesbian.)
I miss you mei. I really, really miss you.
Everytime, you will text me.
Maybe even call me. I miss you.
I really do.
I love you mei.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Hey peepos. Tomorrow Ari Raye Haji yaw.Ahahaha, momma told me. Gonna wake up at 0800 then go Mak Milah house.
Then proceed to nenek house or something.
Gyeah, baby. Get to play wit Hazeeqah ;D
Lols! Gotta bring extra home clothes so i can change if she wanna play.
So i won't sweat and smell unpleasant while wearing Baju Kurung :P
Hahahaha! Seriously dude, i damn, damn, easy to sweat.
And oncei sweat. I sweat, ALOT.
Yes, ALOT. *_____________* Yikes.
And, and! Oh, oh!
My cousin is coming! WOOHOO!
Er, the one from England ;D Gyeah baby!
I wanna bring her go shopping! And like see see Singapore :D
I hope i can be an awesome tourist D:
Hahahahaha! Damn. I'm super, duper excited yaw!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
You just have to fcukin make my life a fcukin miserable wan huh?Look, what happen this nite, wasn't entirely my fcukin fault okay?!
You think i fcukin scared of you ar?
Walao, if i got the chance, i'm runnin outta this hell on earth man.
Wakao eh. How i ever wish i never was born..
I know you're way, wayyy, wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy older then me.
People have limits sia. No need till angry, angry then want fcukin do those things laa.
Wakao eh. Yesterday, i've gotta hide all my emotions.
Have to trap it inside of me, try'na suck it all in and try'na hold the cap to ensure that i won't beakdown before you or daddy.
Then, today. This shitty, shitty, fcukin thing you give me?
Wa-laooooooooooo. I wanted to shout at you the things that were ringin in my head.
But i didn't. I keep fighting wit those voices.
Sayin, "She's my momma. I can't do it."
And then, unfortunately. You went over the line.
I started cussing hateful, most bad-dest things under my breath.
I wanted to screammmmmmm. Wanted to run in an open space.
Wanted to dugmy head and cuddle on too someone.
But i can't. I have to face to it. Myself.
I have to gather all the pieces of me bac together
Friday, December 5, 2008
Argh. I have no fcukin clue why i'm feeling like this.What the bizauoos. What the bizauoos. What the bizauoos. What the bizauoos.
I can really, really feel the inside of me all messed up.
I can feel that some of the puzzle are lost.
It really sucks to have this feeling.
I'm not fcukin faking it dumbass.
Well, it just so happen my fcukin life.
Unfortunately. Runs like this.
So, if you fcukin assholes don't fcukin believe me.
Or you fcukin think i'm trying to seek attention.
Just so you know.
Im not a attention seeker. I have other betta things to do.
I don't need anyone to help me.
No, i'm not trying to be action or what sort.
I just need to settle this on my own.
I'm the only one who knows how i'm feeling. I'm the only one who knows me.
Who knows me deeply.
So, i have to deal wit it on my own.
I'll gotta gather back and solve the puzzle.
Before it's worst.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Gyeah baby.Finally i bought tha colours that i wanna.
So, yesterday went to Giant wit Shahidah.
She bought jeans.
I bought myself two fbtssssssssss :D
One purple, one orange!
COOLIO!
Hahahahahaha.
Actually i wanted to buy red and orange.
But then, to me.
Red fbt don't kinda look nice on me...
So i change to purple.
Hahaha.
Still hunting for Lime Green wan tho ;D
Oh gyeah.
I dropped my laptop quite hard tho.
I swore i got a bad feeling bout it.
But i just shrug it off.
Then when i plug in cannot charge D:
Wakao.
Was like.
'Die liao. Die liao. Die liao. Die liao.'
I kept banging the thing.
Tried still cannot.
Waste effort hah?
I think i make the thingy even worst lor -.-
Argh, this is just one of my bad habit.
I don't really take good care of the things i get.
It's like, my mommy bought me S500i fone.
Then like, not really one year, spoil liao.
Some of my keypad's fcuked up.
If peps call me.
I can hear their voice, but they can't hear mine.
Argh.
So far, i've got three bad habits.
Ohoho, there's more, i guess?
Trust me.