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Thursday, November 27, 2008
Some peeps are just funny.It's like.
When they made plans wit us.
Ask around who wanna go.
Ask parents liao.
Then suddenly, they cannot go.
Say they haven't ask parents.
Say lazy laaa.
Like.
What the hell rite?
If got valid reason nevermind laaa.
It's kinda troublesome laa making plans wit these kinda peeps.
And, pleaseee just pleasee la friends.
Don't give me any more shits laa.
I'm hurt enough okay -.-
I don't need you to scar the wound even more laaa.
Just leave me alone.
I need air to breathe.
To sort problems inside me.
Don't give me any more shits okay?
Monday, November 24, 2008
Ever had one of those days where you wish you were just a dust, so the wind can blow you and thank you some place else?Ever had one of those days where you really really wanna escape so badly from something that's makin you feel like an outsider?
Ever had one of those days where you really really regret your choice that you made? Well. Guess what? I felt all the above today.
Wanna know why?
CAUSE IM THE ONLY LYSS STUDENT IN MY GROUP FOR TODAY.
Gyeah, it sucks.
Gyeah, i'm a loner.
Gyeah, i feel awkward.
Argh!
Throughout the day, i felt this weird feeling in my chest.
It kinda like, wanna try to go out.
It's like, banging against the wall.
Hoping, and trying to break it.
But, this feeling subsided when i'm wit my cliques back again.
Argh.
Sucha doop *_______*
That fcukin shows how much i hate bein a loner.
And feelin like some outsider.
And guess what?!
I have to suffer for two more fcukin days!
Argh!
Kanasai!
Cibai!
Whoop-tee-fcuk!
Dumbass!
It sucky sucky sucky sucky sucky sucky sucks!
Gondol tol -.- Argh.
Now, moving on to some serious stuffs.
Well, i found out another part of my bad habit.
I just, always, tell people things last mintue.
Like, let's say, A told me next week decide to have barbeque.
Then, next day, got something on.
I alway got the feeling to tell earlier.
But then, somehow, i'll dragged.
Till around three more days, or worst, one more day left -.-
Haishh. I always remind myself bout this matter.
But still, i repeat it like i would wit Maths stuffs.
Haiya, doop right?
I'll end up pissing people off,
plus makin them angry,
plus makin them loose my trust.
Argh.
Crappy, crap right?
Bee-jeez-us *_________*
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Hey earthlings. Changed my blog layout, i think it's okay.
Hahaha, nevermind i'll change when i have the time :D
Gosh, Hunted is release on March 09
Dang it man D:
I knew i shouldn't read the Untamed sooo fastttt.
Sorry :x
It's additive D:
It's like, after you read one page.
You lust, and thirst for more, MORE!
Really! Believe me! D:
I think, Untamed was the first book i finished super fastttt.
The Marked, Betrayed, Chosen all i dragged :DDD
Nyahahahahaha.
I think i finish fast maybe cause i'm attracted to the last part :D
Now, currently reading Twilight.
Hmmmm, not bad ar.
But i prefer House of Night.
Way, wayy, wayyy, wayyyyyyyyyy betta :D
No offence laa readers of twilight.
People got different taste. I've got different taste, so we're cool gyeah? :D
Hmmm, let's see...
Hags from Hell...
Hmm, not realy giving me any problems laa.
Oh gyeah, btw.
HAGS FROM HELL=MINAHS
Incase you didn't know...
I think i'm starting to 'Not Give A Fcukin Damn'
I mean, argh *______*
If they wanna see yo, let them see all they want.
Cause..
Wanna know what's running through their BRAINLESS MINDS?
Jealousy. Jealousy. Jealousy.
Yup, that's all there is in that thick brains of them *________*
If i have to choose... My instincts are the one i'm heading too.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Okay.Finished wit Untamed.
Damn, it's super duper crazy when that Hag from Hell,
Aka, Neferet, did that thingy at the end.
Stupid bitch *______*
I soooo can't wait for Hunted man!
There are gonna be alota serious butt kicking!
And the strugle to get a grip of House of Night from those montrous thingies.
Well, i bet Zoey can do it.
She's got her side-kick; Aphrodite.
Her best friends; Stevie Rae, Damien and his boyf, The Twins.
And her believers; Erik and those Red Fledgings, oh, not forgetting,
The Son of Erebus, Darius.
( Yes, Damien, IS gay. So? Doesn't mean gays can't have a space in this book -.- )
So, now.
Moving on to ma life.
Hah, don't know why.
I'm still receiving warning bells whenever i'm closed to her.
Somehow.. Someway.. My guts..
They're tellin me.. Not to get TOO close,
They're tellin me.. Not to trust 100%,
They're tellin me.. Not to utter any secrets to her.
They're tellin me.. Not to say anything bout ma "ehem".
(Don't even ask! I'm not tellin, NO MATTER WHAT!)
So, between that small voice in my heart vs the loud voice in my head.
I've choose the one from my heart.
Cause, i really, really, REALLY, ( no idea how to emphasise on that word nomore -.- )
have some major issues.
Well, one of them, which, i just found out recently....
Like, whenever that people like 'her',
Like, some of my friends, who now are popular.
Sadly, forget their old friends,
sadly, only come to you when they're in trouble or like feel loner.
Becomes all goody, goody wit me.
I'll repay them back,
extra, sparkly, nice, all angel-y attitude.
Gyeah, tell me bout it.
That's my worse, worse major issues.
So, i have to straigten that out.
That'll be at the top of my NEED TO DO list :D
i'll stand strong and fight whatever that's coming my way.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Okay, the whole crappiness bout my life.Is gettin from bad-worst-better.
Well, for now, it's better,
I'll bet when the time future comes, it'll be easy-peasy.
Reading Untamed has lighten and possibly,
Cleanse and tidy the 'inside' of me.
Pfft -.- i won't let whatever inside of me,
that's causin this tears, weird dreams, and a whole lotta shit behaviour
happen to me.
I'm gonna fight it, i'm not gonna let it take over me.
Aha, no damn fcukin way you dubu-dubu-dobo.
I'll do whatever it takes to fcukin be normal like i used to be -.-
Before this damn shit came.
No damn way this shit's gonna turn my life upside down.
No damn way this shit's gonna cause me mood-swings,
crappy attitude, the whole name callin on myself.
(Gyeah, the whole name callin came back again. *_______*)
No damn way this shit's gonna destroy my already perfect life.
NO FCUKIN WAY. OHO, NO WAY MAN.
Oho, damn right, it's messin wit the wrong person.
Oho gyeah, darn fcuk, i'm sick wit all those 'hags from hell',
lookin at me like i'm some kinda alien.
I swear, if i were, Zoey in the House of Nights series,
i would already zap you wit my affinities for all the elements.
Damn. Couldn't you guys, for one second.
Just one shit second, to not stare at girls walk pass by yo?!
Peeps, i'm not talkin bout guys -.-
I'm talkin bout those HAGS FROM HELL!
HAGS FROM HELL=MINAHS
Yes, i'm aware i'm super duper fugly.
Super duper, uber ridiculously humongous.
Do you guys really have to stare like that?!
Bee-jeez-us man *________*
Just let your fcukin eye rest on men laa.
Sucha doop. Oh yea.
While i was walking wit Hanis, at TM.
One hag from hell, stared at me like..
She made it way, way too obvious laa -.-
Hanis and i were exchanging glances at each other,
I was like, " What the bizauoos?"
Double, triple, pffffffffffttttttttttttttt -.-
You hags from hell needa seriously fine a new 'hobby' man.
If not, i'm tellin yo, yo faces are seriously gonna break dudetteS.
Shitty shitty life
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Well, let me summarise my life.I-T-S
S-H-I-T-T-Y
S-H-I-T-T-Y
C-R-A-P-P-Y
C-R-A-P.
Get it?
Apart from my loved ones laa, they're not all those words.
Haishh.
It's like. I don't feel me.
You get it? I don't really feel like my old self.
And then, i can feel it. Inside of me, it's all messy.
It's like..
I'm like Stevie Rae in House of Night books.
She's dead, then Zoey helped her regain her humanity.
Then now, she's undead, and she's totally change.
It's like, she's a different person now compared to last time.
Now you get what i mean?
*_____________________*
And i know, i'm hurtin those people around me.
Including baby, i realy really was crappy just now.
I'm sorry. But alota shit is going on wit my life after that incident.
Everything is all messy in me.
I don't know why, i don't feel like ME.
So, pleaseee oh pleaseee just bear for awhile.
I'll try ta sort things out.
I hope you believe in me, and have faith in me, and confidence.
Cause i don't have any. Gyeah, whoop-tee-fcuk.
♥House of Night Series
Monday, November 17, 2008
MARKED: FIRST.
BETRAYED: SECOND.
CHOSEN: THIRD.
UNTAMED: FOURTH.
HUNTED: FIFTH.
EACH BOOK COSTS 17.90
Lols, kinda looks like i'm promoting the book.
Hahahaha, Well, maybe :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Seriously ma, you guys gotta read the books.
It's highly addictive, super super cool, very dark and mysterious.
Now i'm currently reading UNTAMED.
Damn damn nice laaa.
Oh yea, the fifth book, which is HUNTED is comin out on May 09.
If i'm not wrong.
Whenever i'm bored.
I'll go to my room, sit on my bed.
Lean on my pillow, wit my two trusty side-kicks by my side ( ;D )
And then devour every single page of ma book
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I could have died
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Yesterday was like...Whoa, damn damn scary.
Was playing wit Amierah at the swing.
When we're done, i went riding my bike.
Then suddenly, walao, like, everything all weird.
Plus wit ma cramps, then plus the sudden giddiness plus suddenly i felt all weak.
I tried ta force myself to ride.
Then really REALLY cannot tahan liao.
I stopped the bike. Then..
Wakao, when i stand up, my neck went all hot then come to my ear then face.
Then suddenly all blackout. I can't see anything.
I dropped to the floor, sitting down.
I was moaning and sorta crying a lil.
Then tried to stand up aota times, still, got blackout.
I called momma. She damn damn shock siol.
She came wit rose syrup.
She told me my hand was all cold.
And my body all very very weak de.
Then daddy went back from work. He insisted me go doctor.
I don't want. But he forced me. Pffft -.-
Crap wanna know what?
It's all cause of my diet.
He said if i continue having this diet, i may have some more blackouts.
Or worse. A permanent blackout that may damage my brain.
DANCEE DANCEE!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Ahh. Watchin Cheetah Girls 2 makes me wanna go back to dancing.
Well, momma won't let me.
So, that's why i picked up a new one.
Which is drums.
Well it's not really that bad.
Besides, i like drums.
Hell no, i LOVE drums.
But still, inside of me still loves dancing.
I still miss dancing.
Hah, no way am i gonna start bac.
Wit this kinda body that i'm having now?
Pfft, no way laaa -.-
Only tiny peeps are meant too.
Not like me. But....
I still wanna dance.
Double, triple pfffffffffffffffffffffffftttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt -.-
Life's a dragggggg.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I WANT to be free, to be alone.I HAVE to be free, to be alone.
I NEED to be free, to be alone.
Argh, why must she be sucha pain in the bum?
Which agent has told you i got a boyf?
Which dumbass agent has reported to you that i go out wit my boyf.
Eh hello.
Are you and your uncertified agent hallucinating?
Hello! Wake up hor! Stop hallucinating kay.
I'm not wit anyone okay -.- How many times must i convince you?!
I'M NOT SEEING NOR AM I WIT ANYONE.
Double pffffffffffffttttttttttttt -.- Forget it. No matter how hard i try to convince you.
You'll probably listen to that stupid agent of yours.
And mom, you should ask that agent of yours for refund laaa -.-
All those things she told you are CRAP. BULLSHIT. LIES.
For god's sake laaa mom. Have you check and recheck whether that agent is certified -.-
My god.
Needs more confidence.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Hmm..I really look up to Rui En's Character in the show ' By My Side'.
She has AIDS. But she lives her live to the full.
She lives her life everyday helpin patient wit AIDS.
She lives her life ignoring the fact that she has that disease in her body.
She continues living her life to the full. Eventhough, she knows, one day, she might not make it.
Now why can't i do that? ( I DON'T HAVE AIDS.)
It's just.. I have some low self confidence and low self esteem issues.
Last time, i would stare at the mirror. And keep on cursing hurtful words to myself.
Keep on punching my stomach.
Keep on saying,"Why are you such an ugly fat-ogre?".
Yes, it's that serious. And everyday, when i go out. I'll go out in fear.
Fear that others would make fun of me. Would stare and talk bout me.
Well, now. It has gotten ALOT better. Lucky me, i had my friends, my mei, baby, everyone helping me out.
I started exercising, cut down on sugary stuffs. Started snacking on fruits instead of chocs.
Well, i've lost alota weight.
And whenever, i look myself in the mirror. I kinda really like the girl staring at me.
Now i can see how gorg she really is.
Forgive me.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorryI'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
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I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
SLEEPOVERRR
Friday, November 7, 2008
Cousins evaded my houseee!Lol, Kak pu3 and zul came to stay overnite.
Wasn't such a bore laaa compared to other days when i'm alone -.-
Cause, i'm THE ONLY CHILD.
Ahakz, she used the laptop for awhile.
Then here i am, my turn now :DDDDDDD
Now she's lying on my bed, seeing my drum notes. I bet she doesn't have a clue bout it. :DD
Admiring my fiance's foto now.
Lols! Kiddin laaa! I'm not engaged okay -.-
Hahahahahah! Just lookin at Kyle Burns' oh-so-hot fotos.
He's such....... He's too fiiine. I think he's the hottest drummer ever laaa!
In this generation, in my opinion only laaa! :DDDDDDDD
Slack slacking is what we're doing now. Nyahahaha, nothing better to do ba.
KYLEEE BURNNNSSS <3
Thursday, November 6, 2008
^^ Kyle Burns from Forever the Sickest Kids
Ain't he such a hotiiie?
Ain't he soo fiiiiiiine?
Wahhhh! He's mine ladies! M-I-N-E!
I saw him first! Nyeh nyeh! :P
First caught him in a video; Whoa oh! - Forever the sickest kids.
Damn DAMN hottttttttttttttttttttttt.
And his drums... in that video... is soooooo...
FCUKIN COOL AND CANTEK SIOLXZXZXZXZ.
The material like see through, then the colour is lime green.
Which is, my favourite colour! Duh -.-
Momma was like... "Ahh no, you're not gettin a new one. You just had yours. Plus, i don't think it is sold in Singapore".
Crappy crap, lucky me hah? Or should i say.. [UN]lucky me.
Double pffffffffffffffffftttttttttttttttt. -.-
Whatever! Kyle Burns is my OWNAGE! MINE! NO ONES!
Muahahahaha, im evil. Darn right i am, (only for this case laaa) ;D
Monday, November 3, 2008
Will be going to Batam.Sleep at hotel for one night only. Will be back on Wednesday!
------ CIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ------
Armageddon
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww,
Ain't that movie Armageddon so touching and yet so scary?
Lols, when i was younger, i'd used to cry seeing it.
Hahahahaha, now if i were to cry. Like... paiseyy laaa. Hahaha.
You might think i'm weird or whatever, but i'll always save the crying for bed time.
Lols. I'm serious -.-
So now you know one of my deepest, most darkest, most weirdest secret.
I know i'm a cry baby laa. But i can't help it, paiseyy laa if momma or daddy see -.- Shucks laa.
The director of this movie is damn good sia, special effects all so cool.
Then the story line all very touching very sad. Hahahahakzxzx.